You know… I’ve been thinking lately,
and before you say anything thinking a lot is very dangerous for me,
that I just might be going crazy.
I say this cause I know for a fact that insanity has been creeping up to me slowly all these years.
But boy… it seems insanity has gotten faster cause it seems like lately I’ve been losing my mind into the deep depths of an abyss.
I’ve been seeing crazy dark things. Talking to myself more often about the most random and dark things and I’ve gotten these moments that seem like I have the utter most moments where I loss myself in madness.
I mean… I’ve been thinking about how I would die and all that jizz on the daily. I mean… does an average teenage girl or even person think of stuff like that? And it’s not like any suicidal thoughts man… it’s like how I’ll die from the hands of others…
I’ve trying to reassure myself that I’m not crazy, but man… The more I say and think about it… The less sincerity I feel in my words.
I’m kind of scared and terrifid… that maybe I am going insane. And the more time that passes the greater my fear grows.
But if I think maybe the thing that might cure me is if someone in my life tells me in sincerity that I’m not going crazy.
I want someone to straight up tell me in all seriousness that I’m not going insane and that I’m not crazy and that I’m not fine and life is not going dandy and that as someone special and close to them I should take that smile off my face, cry all I want to, cuddle and hug and share my thoughts to them openly because they care about my health and they care that I get through life with light shoulders and a shoulder to cry on cause I deserve someone to listen to my problems and not be anyone’s advisor for awhile and just tell my thoughts to the world.
But you know what? Unfortunately I don’t have anyone like that… cause no - one in my life is going to see this and say anything about it and I’m just going to live my life getting closer to insanity and crying only by myself and keeping in all my thoughts in my head because honesty I’m a weakling and a coward and I don’t fucking share my thoughts with anyone because I feel as though Noone in real life cares if I have a fucking opinion about my mental state cause you know what everyone has their own problems and I’m as humble as a loyal dog and don’t want to burden people with my shit excuses.
Got this frustrates me so much… but you know what? I’ve just completely lost hope that my best friends will see this and say a thing to me. That the people in my life will see through my facade and tell me that I’m fucking sick in the head and can share more. That I can stop feeling like shit whenever I tell someone my problems cause I think they’ll see me as annoying. I’ve lost hope in all of that… and its put me in a ditch man. A ditch that I don’t think I can get out of because I think that ditch is too deep and eventually I’m going to die alone without anyone knowing anything.
God fucking damn it… why can’t someone just help me…
If you’re reading this and you know me in real life, please please please… tell that I’m not okay and that it’s alright to cry in your arms. Cause I don’t know how long I can keep this up before I do something completely stupid and something that will change my life forever.
【Mekakucity Actors End Card】
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※Please do not put words (such as “See you again! Please look forward to the next episode!”) in the illustration.
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Primary selection (Episodes 1~3) : 8th March 2014 (Saturday) ~ 31st March 2014 (Monday)
Secondary selection (Episodes 4~7): 8th March 2014 (Saturday) ~ 30th April 2014 (Wednesday)
Tertiary selection (Episodes 8~11): 8th March 2014 (Saturday) ~ 31st May 2014 (Saturday)
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[There’s a long terms and conditions that I will not translate since…It’s very long orz]
I read through the terms and conditions and I would just like to point out some very important things:
-make sure everything you use in the picture belongs to you or is something you made (no copyright infringements). Be very careful of textures and other sources!! Also make sure that the picture doesn’t belong anywhere else, or was submitted to another contest.
-please do not post the same picture anywhere else until the results are announced (twitter, facebook, pixiv,dA, other social media) If you’re not selected then you would be free to post it anywhere
-your picture may be used for multiple things like promotions and others (you will get paid for these uses), the picture copyright itself will belong to the organizing company so even you as the original artist is prohibited for particular uses (most likely printing in books and selling at cons is not ok)
-Everything regarding the contest like contact or questions, settling contracts will be done in japanese so make sure you have a translator or that you know japanese.
Long story short: Some of these rules if broken will immediately jeopardize your picture to be removed from the other entries.
Be very careful about usage of your textures and patterns. Don’t post your picture anywhere else until selection, and the picture’s copyright will belong to them as a third party sole owner if it is selected. (You will get paid for its uses.)Thank you so much for the translation! I’m really grateful!
- Dated: circa 1500-1525
- Culture: Italian
- Place of Origin: Italy, Ferrara
- Medium: steel, etched and gilded
- Measurements: overall - l:101.90 cm (l:40 1/16 inches) Wt: 1.00 kg. Blade - l:85.40 cm (l:33 9/16 inches). Quillions - w:17.50 cm (w:6 7/8 inches). Grip - w:11.10 cm (w:4 5/16 inches)
- Inscriptions: Ercole dei Fideli
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